Dear World
I am not sorry for being a terrible blogger lately. I am not sorry that I have had nothing to type inside this box which no one will ever read.
My life is getting more and more bizarre, yet at the same time, it’s making more sense. There are too many things spinning around my head for me to even try to set them out in order. I just want to disappear. Laters.
Barbecues and Sunshine
Knock me over with a feather, it’s sunny in Scotland! Not only that but it’s WARM. Like 20C-25C warm. First time this year we’ve had truly decent weather and I am LOVING IT. I feel like I’ve stepped into another country! Gethyn and some friends spontaneously arranged a barbecue last night and he invited me to go. I was feeling rather down in the dumps so I was tempted to say no; however, I decided to play the Yes Man and went anyway and it was so much fun! After the bbq Gethyn took me for a walk through some really nice woodland and it was just amazing. Plus, my allergies really aren’t giving me much trouble this year so I really do feel on top of the world. :D
In continued excellent news I have begun writing again! I have been building on a story I had my first ideas about when I was about 13-14. I’m hoping to turn it into a novel eventually. There is so much planning involved right now, I have been following the Snowflake Method in the hopes of structuring my work better. It really does help, even if you don’t use every element of it. So that has been highly productive and I’m very excited about it. Been doing a lot of reading too which is always a good thing. Going back out to soak up those rays, laters! :D
A Tale of Two Cities
I finally finished reading it yesterday afternoon! It was such a slog. Totally worth it for the ending but man I have never read anything so difficult in my entire life! I feel somewhat triumphant at having finished it, even if it did take me a month and a half to read… :P
I am now reading “Eleven Minutes” by Paulo Coelho. It seems to be going so fast, I love being back to my regular speed… Good stuff, good stuff.
Off into town with the homies on Monday, can’t wait to see them. :) Laters.
Happy Birthday
I say this to two people in my life: Todd, my ex-boyfriend, who I love unconditionally though he doesn’t know it. Not to say I am “in” love with him, but I will always care for him dearly. I hope he has a good day and will remember the good times between us.
The other person I wish happy birthday to has only just been born. She is my goddaughter, Alexis, Lexi for short, born today to Josh and Michelle. Welcome to the world, darling. :) xxxx
Interesting Times
Not the Terry Pratchett novel, I’m afraid to say. I have been musing about Love and the effect it has on one’s brain. I don’t know about anyone else out there but it seems to make me go doolally. Example: I have realised that I still love my ex, who, quite frankly, couldn’t care less whether I live or die. This little fact has been eating me up for quite some time and I didn’t really realise it until last night. I have been so upset and angry with him I didn’t consider it even remotely possible that I might still love him, especially considering how incompatible we are as people. ie, he doesn’t give a damn about any of the things I care about, hates displaying emotion, doesn’t enjoy heartfelt discussions much, and is generally rather self-absorbed. Between this and not caring about me you’d think I would have no reason left to love him. And there IS no reason, I just do. This came as a bit of a nasty shock, I must admit, but it explains why I still get hurt by him so much I suppose… Ugh.
Another interesting thought: Fashion. I finally figured out which ‘season’ I am, ie which colours suit me best, and it turns out I am a Winter. White, black, grey, blue, blue-green and certain shades of red all look fantastic on me. Very little else does. It’s funny that I never realised it before; I always thought I was an Autumn and wondered why it made me look so drab. So today I am wearing jeans, a baggy grey tee which is about the comfiest thing in the world, and just to be daring some yellow bracelets. Oh and of course my Yin Yang. That hasn’t left my outfits since I bought it. It helps me stay in balance.
Haha, my phone’s battery is so low that it can’t even vibrate properly. It’s making a rather pathetic clunking noise every time I get a text in. Poor thing. I abuse it so. :)
Reporting In with Whiny Tones
I have had a migraine pretty much all day. When I woke up this morning I thought I was DYING. Ugh. Only way I can account for this is the weather; it suddenly got very thundery after a few days of nice weather and that used to be what set them off. I haven’t had one for a while so it came as a nasty shock.
Other general bad news: my grandfather’s in hospital. He collapsed again and this time he broke his ankle and got concussion. He and Nan are probably going to have to move into a bungalow now, which is kind of a big deal since they haven’t moved in like 18 years. They’re also rehoming their dog because she’s causing them too much stress. It’s just weird watching them deteriorate… I know that sounds kind of morbid but they looked after me so much when I was little and to see them becoming less and less capable is pretty scary for me.
So that’s me reporting in. Sorry it was kind of depressing but such is life. Laters.
